there are things we know nothing of
yet, we speak on it as if we have trained
properly in its glory, i do not pretend
to be those things anymore, i have seen
what invalidating yourself looks & feels
like for the sake of ego, for the sake of
entitlement, i will speak for myself for
there are times i speak in broad terms
& some get defensive for their own
personal demons making them react
i am entitled to two things: breathing &
happiness. everything else are things
i work hard for: understanding. respect.
love. art. music. traveling. understanding.
learning. partnership. & everything else
you could fit in one of my suitcases.
i am constantly working on myself but
in terms of how would i feel about my
self 10 years from now. 10 years ago
before my son was born i worked as
hard as i can to hold on to happiness
then when he was born happiness had a
new definition & a new responsibility. oh
i am a flawed man i can tell you more
than you could ever know from anyone
else but that’s for me to work out, it is up
to you to work on yourself then we can
compare notes, i spend majority of my
time looking at notes, looking at the
progression this life has given me, i am
not a title, or a role, or a position, or a
made up character in a story i wrote
but i am also not the same man i was
when this skin was tighter & younger.
i used to think about the week ahead,
now i think about the months ahead, the
years ahead, the decade ahead, i told
someone once, the difference between
myself in the last two decades is my focus
on longevity & conversation about legacy
& its correlation with my relationship
with my son & happiness & how the things
i work hard for: ( understanding. respect.
love. art. music. traveling. understanding.
learning. partnership. & everything else
you could fit in one of my suitcases. ) are
all very necessary. i am a lucky man but i
also need help at times, i get down on myself
my ego is not as large as it used to be, i am
so much more grateful about everything,
i used to limit myself so much as a young man
claim streets that weren’t mine as mine & use
it as a badge of honor, now i use my eyes, my
memory, my story, my older skin as portraits
for people to see & observe, the world is ours
to explore, don’t spend your life wondering what
could have been when what could be is waiting for
you & your laughter. go chase your happiness